For the very last time maybe i should let him go coz i know that he’s OBVIOUSLY letting me go0o.. Letting me go to the fact that he dumped me, he gave me up, he leaves me speechless , he leaves me hanging, he tortured my heart, he definitely killed me emotionally..
After all i wanna say sorry for what i told to your PRINCESS in my previous blog post. I wanna apologize too for the few words that are so intimidating to hear. I know im not perfect and i am so aware about what had happened to me , i get depressed thats why i was so ANGRY that time and i felt like i've experienced a PHYSICAL PAIN, (BINGO!! both were signs of being DEPRESSED!)
It just happened that maybe you dunno how to control my emotions of how to deal with the problems in your LIFE, that is why you did it to me , YOU LEAVE ME :[ (CRAP! why am i always defending you? and why im always protecting you, for you not to be hated by others? Do i still LOVE you? or MAYBE this is just an effect of trying to get your attention as a part of my defense mechanism?)
Talking to my BLOG again is not an easy job!! (is it a job?). Well, it's just similar in facebook that it is the only NORMAL way that you post in a WALL or the only WALL that you can express all of what you feel.. BUT! believe me, it can HELP! that if you will ask me about it.. You can have an alternatives, you can read books, talk to someone in person or maybe through call and text, all of the mentioned items are already done by me . Wo0o0ohh! CONGRATULATIONS!
Now, here i am! really did all the best way on how to move on but didnt even have a progress even in the first step . . CAN YOU HELP ME ? is this what im goin to ask for myself? or to other people.. CAN YOU HELP ME PINKY or CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME? what the?? im being crazy!!! Maybe , i wasn’t able to move on because YES!! i mean it. (I STILL DUN WANNA MOVE ON or shuld i say I STILL LOVE HIM ) that im still holding on to him :((
IM SORRY BUT STILL I CAN’T LET YOU GO:(( but im not gonna force my self to you again, maybe i shud go by myself i shud forget u and be ISOLATED forever in your life so that i will NOT be the REASON for the break up of your PRINCESS…
GOODBYE FOR NOW?
NOPE!!! it shud be .. GOODBYE FOREVER!!
