TIRING DAY!!!

      I'm so tired of crying every night  i just can’t STOP myself crying knowing that my FAMILY is now having a problem, it's so hard to go on duty while you have a problem deep inside this is really the first duty ever that I had alot of MISTAKES!! D**N I HATE IT! i don't used to be like this! so DUMB! and WORTHLESS! Im f*cked up!!! i really wanna STOP goin to school coz even my studies were already been affected!

i MISS the days when LIFE’S BIGGEST DECISIONS could be SOLVED with ENNEY MINNIE MINIE MO :(

      I just can’t imagine that my LIFE today would be a very tiring and emotional day of my LIFE!! There comes a conversation between my eldest sister and me of course it was a family problem so i cant expressed it thoroughly here I wish somebody would catch me because im really falling now, but i promised myself i will NOT give up until i will achieve my GOAL , that is to solve the NEW problem that i am encountering now, i know its a little bit impossible but i dun wanna deny the saying EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE!! for the FIRST TIME i will make PROMISE to myself..

 I miss those days that i am with my family bonding together, especially during Christmas, new years and every vacation, i think every family member could isolate their selves because they have their own family but im not saying that they would forget us, that’s what i believe. This was also the day that i've erased my 19 albums in my friendster account and i reli dunno why , maybe just to run out lookin with the memories in my past.. whatever!! just pray for my journey… wish me luck again :(     

THE FIRST TALK :)

It was our lunch break where im so disturbed, stressed out and very exhausted and tryna find a way to divert my attention into sumthin that wd make me feel satisfied and probably forget the problems i am into, in that very moment i am with one of my closest friends which i often call him as my “bhe2 ko”. Im tryna ask for a comfort from him and maybe he can give me some words of advise on what are the possible interventions that im gonna do with my problems. He was a very gud adviser though he makes jokes within our conversations, but i can internalized his advises. In that moment, i still have these WORRIED expression in my face but i didnt allow other people to sense of what im feeling that time.

As i am listening to my favorite rock song in my ipod , i heard that someone called my name saying , “PINK”. I couldnt recognize that voice coz its a little bit unfamiliar and somehow familiar lol.. I then realize that i just cant recognize it because ever since that person didnt even talk to me coz were not that close and it was our first time to be in one section , so i was shocked to hear him calling my name , as if were very close as he call my name that time, it was a very sweet and calm voice from my beloved crush and that was our FIRST TALK ever, he asked me about why am i absent yesterday because our clinical instructor was looking at me, i didnt mind the question that he asked me coz i was very amazed with his charming and angelic face (this is how i describe it).

For me then , this day is a very exhausting day ever but i suddenly realized that only his warm voice let me forgot the exhaustion that i felt this day and i know that sometimes its psychological but i tell you it works alot! .PROVEN!! Til next time


the picture above is my beh2 ko , sadly i dun have a photo of my crush lol maybe next tym i will have it on hand :))

"WHY MEN WANT SEX AND WOMEN NEED LOVE"

      "Without LUST the human species could be threatened with extinction"


[from the book of Allan and Barbara Pease "WHY MEN WANT SEX AND WOMEN NEED LOVE"] 

       This is one of the BEST NATIONAL BOOKSTORE line  I have read about this book, actually i didn't read it everyday like my notes in school , i just read it when i have my leisure time coz its not also my book , its my sister's lol. She just bought it when she had a visit on one of the branches of NBS here in davao city . Its cover is very interesting that many people would expect something from it and some would think that it was not a good book because it is all about SEX! u know people likes judging something which they didnt even know whats the CONTENT of that book. . 

      As of now, i am trying to read it minimally and i look forward for the time that im gonna finish it. ;) so WISH me LUCK people and keep updated on my posts coz il be posting some of the good lines in that book here in my blog :)