SICK :(

GONE GONE FOREVER :(

      Yesterday night i was very excited for my very first job interview. I studied and practice my lines for the possible questions that will come up the next morning. I slept around 3am and I woke up around 6am (BINGO!! was that me? an early morn pip??) Yea yea, u'd better told me that, "hey you! you have to sleep early in prep for yer first job interview!" I knew it, when i woke up? I am having this very awful HEADACHE! So, I decided not to go on to my interview, anyway i have another time to be interviewed again and again.
      So, for the whole day, i sleep and checked my email, facebook, and of course my blogspot account. I talked to some friends regarding what happened today. Until such time, I called my "Special friend" because i wasn't able to call him the whole day yesterday (i was just a lil bit busy that day and i think  i missed him alot). So, we talked and i asked him about how was he feeling because he's sick for i think 3 days now and yeee I was happy about what he told me because he's kinda feeling good now. After a short conversation he suddenly told me about ending the call and rather chat in FACEBOOK (YES! i know i know.. im used to it). I can't even open a topic to him because i told him that if i talked to him it seems like i'l forget everything in my mind. I know it's weird but i don't think why I'm always experiencing it when i talked to him. After that conversation, he then told me that he has something to do and that he will talk to me later. I always wonder what was that SOMETHING he will do that made me wait for i think 24 hours. Yes! i know he's not my BF but i was just wondering what was it.
      He signed out and I checked his facebook account and then i was so SHOCKED about his RELATIONSHIP STATUS!!!, from being SINGLE to IN A RELATIONSHIP :( .I never expected it (YES, N-E-V-E-R). When i saw it? I felt that my blood suddenly rushed into my head that i felt so hot and all of my body was shaking and i was like an intimidated chimpanzees, a stressed mice and a very frightened cat who suffered from having goose bumps around my body.
      Unconsciously, i closed all the applications and windows in my pc, i turned the pc off, locked the door, sat on the hidden corner of my room and covered a blanket. I wanted to talk to someone but i can't.. I don't want them hear me crying like a lost puppy.. Someone called me in my phone, i acted normally like im NOT crying but as i was listening to him sharing about the memories with his x girlfriend, I can't STOP myself from crying that I wasn't able to talk and say sorry for I failed to comforted him. . So, i decided to end the call and sent him a message apologizing about what i've acted. He then called again and comfort me, he told me that it doesn't matter if I wont talk or share to him what happened as long as he was their with me so that I won't feel alone.

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