UNFRIEND and BLOCKED!

      Today is my mom's birthday but think I have another thing to figure out. It was a shocking news from my facebook account when I updated it. I was looking for a sample style of a scrub suit and I directly remember one person who wears the same scrub suit that I wanted also to be like mine  when im gonna go duty in ER one of these days.

      Suddenly, when I searched that friend of mine in facebook I was really like speechless for I can't find him in my friend lists. So, I was hoping maybe it was just because of the very slow internet connection. I waited for his name to load and come out of the lists but I wasn't able to see his name.

      By that time I was conviced that he BLOCKED me :). Well, there are only two things that popped out in my head and that is to believe that someone UNFRIEND and BLOCKED me in my facebook account. So now, if someone blocked me should i be very happy so that i can move on? :D or should i be sad because im starting to miss that person already? :(( 

Purpose: Utilization

      I don't really know whats my purpose in LIFE maybe u would tell me that i should look around and seek for that purpose. Things changes everyday, you should always have a back up plan. 

      Sometimes, in life you should always have to take a risk for you to get what you want and risking per se is a part of your back up plan. Holding back to reality is very risky for me, but now I can say that i can easily adapt to some chosen reality. 

      Okay, limme explain to you. I am really having problems in treating people especially when they talk about their lives and share about everything around them. Of course,  you met him for the first time so you shouldn't believe  him like he is your super best friend. Were humans, yea i knew that were not perfect, we lie, white lies,  half lies and crack lies whatever you call it, we all do it! You don't just trust people easily. You don't just tell them all your secrets and believe them as they promised to keep it. No, that's not it! 

      Oftentimes, we lie but behind those lies are the real and naked model of each personality. These personalities depends on how smart you are and use them in a good way or the other. We learned this personalities from person-to-person, from our parents, siblings, relatives, friends and all of the people whom you think is capable of building its own persona. 

       Utilizing them in a very good way is the BEST and PERFECT idea we could ever imagine but using those bad personalities will make you become the WORST and the most INFERIOR individual in the entire universe.

im NOT COMPLAINING, im just CONFUSED!

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      I complain because i am not perfect. i wanted to cry but i cant. i wanted to sleep and rest but things gets to be complicated as quick as my blinking eyes! i always have a short period of time in making important decisions in my life! i often attend other people's problem where i cant even fix my own. i have a choice but i chose to put THEM first. i wanted to start fixing my own concerns but LIFE per se is challenging me hardly and it isn't that easy to move that way. to move like you really should prioritize other people than yourself. to think like you still have your personal issues to start with but you don't even know how. these past few weeks i can't sleep straightly for at least 8 hours coz i have to attend the personal needs of other sick individual. 

     IM NOT COMPLAINING!!! i don't know if i like what is happening now in my life but i think it is, i know it is. should i believe that someone will rescue me from what my concerns are? or should i start doing my personal concerns while attending other people's needs? or should i stop planning my concerns and start acting like im a hero? what should i do? 

      I think maybe i should get some rest coz i am perfectly confused now but i cant sleep anymore coz i need to call someone to arrange and schedule things properly and then guard them whenever they will go. Maybe should get some sleep later after i attend them and of course after i schedule all my personal needs.