HIM: that forever will be..

      Today is i think the day that i am waiting for. I got the answers to my questions in my previous blog post. I am happy and contented that we have talked about our problem. I believe that everything is worth the wait and he made me realize how important i am to him.

      We talked today, he told me SORRY for he was distant to me the past few days and it's difficult for him that we are both far away from each other that its just also hard to be away for so long from someone he cares so much for.

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       Above all, was so happy when he told me that he will never leave me again. I know it's not healthy to just believe that easy but there's no harm in trying and believing. When you're in love you could possibly do that too. Have a happy weekend everyone. Leave some comments.

HIM: that i think i'm HER's :(

      Have you ever tried to stop falling in love because you know for the fact how hard it is to move on?You ever wonder to be happy again with a newly meet person? Do you realized how long you've been struggling for you to forget about your past relationship and then you failed again with your new one?You ever tried waiting for the right person and when you found him you start moving on again? You started moving on again and again if it isn't for you and if isn't the right time for you to fall deeply in love with your perfect guy. I call it perfect guy for i know that every girls would choose the person that would make them complete.

      I've met a man online and he was one of the perfect guy I've known online. I never expected the first day we chatted we kinda like each other and stuffs. I also can't believe that he would be as nice as i was expecting. I can't say bad thing about him for he's just perfectly nice to me. He always remind me of how he likes me and that he's thinking about me all the time. To the point that he wanted to meet me in person but our situation doesn't agreed on what we wanted to happen. I understand how hard it is, especially when we talk via skype, I myself would seriously have to adjust with both of our time difference. He's from Ontario so it's a 12 hour difference. I can feel how hard it is but i always remind myself that this happens for a reason and I am always thankful that after work i can talk to him or message him via facebook and that would help me feel happy and forget about how am i working hard at work. It helps a lot and i feel like stronger for i always have him and i can feel how near he is whenever i read his messages.

            I can still remember the first time we talked via skype that was April 3rd 2012. I was so happy talking to her coz we have a lot of common. We have our own dreams in life but we aim for the same thing and that is to be successful with we dream for. Until such time, I didn't get a message from him. So, was wondering what happened, the day after that he sent me a message saying the internet connection was accidentally broke by his landlord. So, i feel like comfortable knowing that he's fine and he's still there. The day after, he sent me a quick message saying INTERNET IS BACK but 72 hours later i wasn't able to catch him online and wondering again where he is. Then I  sent him a message again then i have no idea that he was online that time he replied that it's kinda difficult to be so far away from me and it's just hard to be away fro so long from someone he cares so much for and yeah that was the last message i received from him .Well I can't blame him from saying that to me for i understand how far we are from each other, until now i still tried to sent him a message saying how much i missed him. I realized after those days we weren't able to talk that I just wanted the truth of how he feels from me now, i just beg him of what he wanted to say on me coz i really don't want him to leave me hanging like i think i am her's.

      I don't want to make this article to have a sad ending, i honestly hate it, I always wanted a happy ending, ever!. But this happened to me and this is the real ending. I couldn't edit it coz i believe that there are people who could drop some comments about this article. I hope so. . 

You think that's a wave of goodbye? 

PERFECT SPOT!!

For a year I have this spot which I would really love to pose every Good Friday. We'll do the 14th Station walk before we can achieve this SPECIAL SPOT that I have been telling you.

This was the first picture taken last April 22, 2011

This is the 2nd pic taken today April 6, 2012

Monthly Family Bonding (January and February)

      Last December 2011 me and my cousins decided to have a monthly family bonding. Every december and vacation we used to stay in our grandfather's hometown (Salvacion) and i believe in that way we became closer to each and every cousins we got.

      Last year September 2011 we lost our ever dearest gradfather and I guess this monthly bonding help us cope up in that very sad part of our lives and maybe this is a part of our coping mechanism that would lead us into moving on. For some reasons, were all part of that family. We lost someone, we denied, we were angry, we bargained, we become depressed, we cried, missed someone special but as human beings we never forget to ACCEPT and together we move on.

January 

February (ICE GIANTS AND KTV BAR)

from WOMB to TOMB JUDGEMENT!

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         There are lots of unwanted things that is happening these days or may happen in our lives. Ever since my mom always remind me and my sisters not to have a boyfriend while were still studying. I hate the fact that you know to yourself that your telling the truth and then they wouldn't believe you, they always wanted to just accept it even if you didn't do it. Why are these people so judgemental? OKAY. I wanna clear this up. I'm not referring to my parents, instead this blog is addressed to all the guilty individual who will be reading this article. 

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         When I was in college I heared about my high school classmates getting pregnant. I hate the fact that they can't STOP or PROTECT themselves from being pregnant. So, when I started my A&P course as part of my nursing career. I realized how these neurochemicals or neurotransmitters in our brain works together and fall in love as easy as we breath! I learned how opposite sex attracts I learned how these hormones file together to make significant changes physically, mentally and emotionally. Of course, I simply learned how these people react in every problems they've encountered. One of the PERFECT example is the "UNWANTED PREGNANCY". When our parenst heared about this news , they get to overreact which is normal. You expect to happen that you father will be the silent one but the most dangerous person you can deal with so better not talk to him. In addition, you have to expect as wel you neighbors would be THE MOST JUDGEMENTAL people in the world that you wish to close your eyes and cover your ears for you not to be very stressed out in watching the way they look at you and listens the way they judge you. These people should be aware that they shouldn't react that much. It isn't easy to be pregnant. They shouldn't scold, give problems and even shout to the pregnant woman. They should consider the fetus inside that woman, the fetus will be the first one to be affected of how the mother feels about the strees that she is into. Here's another thing I am concerned about, when the baby's finally out your parents and all of the people around you especially your neighbors who made you feel so stressed are the first one who would be very glad and congratulate you despite of the hardship from the day that you knew that you're  pregnant until the day that your first child is born. 

         Years after, you and your partner will decide to marry and then the same people that you are going to invite are again the people who used to stop and contradict your boyfriend-girlfriend relationship. Another intimidating part, is when your first child turns 3 years old or more and then they would ask, "When will you and your partner plan to have your second child?" or maybe suggest it directly unto you face! Great!! these people proven "H-A-R-S-H" I repeat H.A.R.S.H!! At first, they'll talk about your mistakes but then again after years or so they will just easily enter into your lives without even thinking how rude they are before. 

A Month of Vacation Back home (DAY 32)

November 13, 2011 (DAY 32)

      Ready to go back in Davao but first i need to attend the mass because its obviously sunday and i should pray for our safe travel as well.

Mawab

Tagum City

Tagum City

Carmen ,Tagum

Davao City (A house full of flowers)

Register Here..

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      October 03, 2011- Today is the day of my PRC Registration as a Registered Nurse. I should wake up as early as 5:00 am but I woke up 54 minutes late than the expected time, so that was about 5:54 am. Here I am rushing again like an UNPREPARED MILITARY OFFICER (by the way, is there such thing as an UNPREPARED MILITARY OFFICER? i think there isn't lol). I know i shouldn't do this, for I oath to be punctual in all of my duty days. So i should say that TIME MANAGEMENT here plays a big role. Anyway, I've seen a lot of my schoolmates in college filling up for them to take the board. I felt glad because all of them congratulated me like I won a grand prize in a contest or I was crowned to be the Ms. Universe haha. I know it's hilarious but YES!! I deserved it.

       When the security guard allowed us to enter in the door I hurriedly ran upstairs to get my priority number and yepeeey!! I got the 8th priority. After that I bought a BIR stamp in the customer service next door to the right side where I got my priority number, then I entered in the room where registration and renewal for license is processed. I prepared my requirements already completely written with the details to be filled up. Lucky me! coz I already got a registration form and an order of payment before my scheduled date. So I was sitting like a princess in the left corner of the room facing in front of the people who will entertain each registration while waiting for my turn to be called.

      At exactly 10:10 am I finished all the steps in my PRC registration. Very excited to go home to see my father and send him for check up.

     

DESERVING :)

      September 26, 2011: After a long tiring day cleaning our little house i think i deserved a food from God. I took a bath and i went to a doctor, my relative physician, I wanna clear this up! I didn't went to a doctor to have a check up i went there because we will be having a private conversation. Anyway, it took me two and a half hour of waiting but its worth it. I went outside the clinic around 5:44pm, I hurriedly ran in the elevator but it was full so I went to the stairs from 9th floor down to the ground floor until i reached St. Jude Thaddeus Church. I was running because the mass will start at 5:30pm but when i went there the mass was not yet starting so I asked one of the attendant in the church, she told me that the mass will start at 5:30pm!!! YES!!! I was so right!! but how come it was not starting??? I then realized that my watch was 20 minutes in advance. . It was a horrible experience but thank God I was not late!

      After the mass I bought a some stuffs and most especially the one that Im longing to buy and that was a "PGT", I wont tell you whats the meaning of it because its kinda creepy for me. So i decided to make a code name out of it. I bought it because I have some collections of PGT before from my classmates and finally I have my own. So I was happy and afraid as well. I don't wanna tell you the reason why. I just want you to know that after I used it. I was so happy with the outcome.

      So, when I went home from church I was very much hungry that's why I washed my hands and I sat on the dining table, I prayed and ate my dinner.. I was sooooooooooooo full that I find myself SHOUTING AND THANKING GOD FOR GIVING ME FOOD.. I was really full and I felt like nauseated :D

      I wanna show you guys what I've eaten:

   RICE                                                                   

     FRIED PORK                                                     

VINEGAR WITH CHILI                                                                                            

 BEEF SIOMAI courtesy of  MASTER SIOMAI

DURIAN (ARANCILLO) 

MANGO-ORANGE JUICE

      Now, can you describe how full I am? If you weren't able to feel then try this kind of food trip!

P.S: I DO NOT OWN THE PICTURES, I WASN'T ABLE TO GET A PIC ON THE EXACT FOOD THAT I BOUGHT BECAUSE I DO NOT HAVE TIME ANYMORE!! DUDE, I WAS SO HUNGRY THAT TIME! :D

      ENJOY!

newy :)

SEPTEMBER 2-3, 2011 was the date that i met a new friend and wasn't expecting that it will be fun being with HIM . . Yes! im having a date with a new friend and im thankful and happy for myself that i wasnt able to just stay in the house grieving for the lost of my "CRUSHES". I know you'll make fun of me when i say that word, but unfortunately in my AGE i still believe in such word.. I know its normal to have a CRUSH but i think its kinda creepy in my part because it's like a kiddy game for me. But anyways, whatever you say i still feel  my adrenaline rushing  in my body when im with. Im NOT in love with him, but i think im happy talking to him. He's the one i can talk to whenever i wanted to, he's the one who knows what i felt everyday in my life since JULY 24, 2011 . . I'll make it clear to all of you guys, we first sending messages and even calling each other from that day on until the day that i made this blogpost.

APRIL 16, 2011 (MARIELLA'S BIRTHDAY)

Happy birthday MARIELLA we wish that you'll have more birthdays to come, continue to be a very good, sweet and kind daughter to your Mamma and Pappa as well as to your little sister Isabella. Thank you for being a very FLINK *good* niece to all your relatives here in the Philippines, continue to develop your singing and dancing career because i know that you can perfectly do it! I hope someday that all your dreams will come true. We will always be here for you and we are looking forward to see, hug, kiss and bond with you again after 2 fruitful years and that time you're already 6 years old. We love you so much and may God bless you and your family!

fra filippinsk familie ;)

DREAM come TRUE!

i still can't believe last March 30, 2011 i received my pin as a graduate in my beloved alma mater and of course the day that I've waited for last April 1. 2011 my GRADUATION DAY!! yepeey..

i'm so happy that day and im still hoping to be happier someday when i will be attending my oath taking as a registered nurse. Yes! im looking forward to be a REGISTERED NURSE and i hope i can make it!

So much that, i got a lots for simple gifts whom i received during my graduation day. I received a pasalubong from my mother a special KAMOTE CANDY and POLVORON which were my favorite , another gift that i've received from my mother was a device used for checking the ears, mouth and nose (lol i don't exactly know what was it, but its cute!). I also received a gift from my mother's co worker she gave me an underwear and a kikay kit :P (haha it was really funny). I got another gift from my cousins a pair of comb with a mirror, and a photo frame. I also received 2 bouquet from my sister and my second cousin. The most exciting surprise that I've received was a tarpaulin from my cousin and i was so shocked when i saw it because i really did not expect it for i have collections of tarps in my room , so definitely that will be included as well!

Hundreds of people also greeted me and i also appreciate that ;) I am also thankful to God for answering my prayers and to my parents and family for the support they have given to me each and everyday! I cant explain the gratitude that i am feeling right now. To my friends who had been my KAKOSA and KAPAKYAS (by the way pakyas is our group name) i will miss you all and see you this coming oath taking! i love you all. .

- - My 25 Cases - -

First of all maybe you will be curious why i do have 25 cases. No no no no, that's not the way you guys are thinking! It's just that imma hella have to complete these cases in the hospital for it is required in my chosen program. Today, i've completed all of them and i am so happy about it!

Secondly, i'm so thankful to my Clinical instructor Ms. Llewelyn I. Cortez, RN, MN for sticking around even if she's not feeling well. You are one of the reasons why i was able to complete my cases.

Thirdly, i wanna thank Dr. Lei a GS resident from SPMC (Southern Philippines Medical Center formerly Davao Medical Center) for cheering me up during the procedure which helped me lessened my anxiety, for giving me the opportunity to ask questions, for answering my questions and for keeping me focused in the two successive surgery.

Lastly, I wanna thank God for guiding me all the time. For always being in my side whenever i need Him. For my family, thank you for the prayer, guidance, support, love and patience. I know i can never ever pay you for whatever effort you've exerted whenever i needed you. Thank you very very much and I hope you will continue to do the same forever and I'll try my BEST to be a future RN and to return all the good things that you have provided for me.

my TSUNAMI story

At exactly 4:21 pm i received a text message from my mother informing me that there will be a possible tsunami that will happen in the PHILIPPINE COASTAL PROVINCES ALONG PACIFIC OCEAN those places were BATANES,CAGAYAN, ILOCOS NORTE, ISABELA, QUEZON, AURORA,CAMARINES SUR&NORTE,ALBAY,SORSOGON,SAMAR,CATANDUANES, LEYTE, SURIGAO and YES! DAVAO CITY this is DUE TO JAPAN's QUAKE 8.9 in SCALE & recently TSUNAMI HIT MAIN HONCHU JAPAN.

Actually, i was in the mall that time when i received my mother's text message ;) I wasn't worried because i know that we don't have to be scared if we really believe in God, but it doesn't mean that even if i am in the mall i wasn't thinking about my family who's away from me. I went home around 8:38 pm and almost of the people were talking about the tsunami news happened in Japan.

I heard a conversation between a woman and a boy teenager talking about the woman's family, she's worried about her children because they were living near the seashore. The teenager then answered that she don't have to worry as long as her children knows how to swim. I don't think if that teenager was joking or he just wanted to offend that woman. Later, when I asked the tricycle driver to drive me home I saw him staring above and wondering of what was he looking at. Maybe he was was also thinking about the tsunami and his family.

As i arrived at the boarding house the aura, environment and the situation has changed because no one's talking about tsunami at all. I was shocked because no one's worried, they were talking about the food that they ate, their experiences before when they were still college and their experiences when they already have a family. I was happy because everyone's not thinking about the tragedy. But, i can't stop my self from asking them about the tsunami news, then they answered me,

"Honey, you don't have to worry because it already happened and we can't stop such situation, all we have to do is to pray for the souls of the people who wasn't able to survive and for the people who lost their family members".

And that was a PERFECT answer from them. That's them, my first and second degree family.

My first cousins, second cousin's and my aunt.

PS. To all BSN Batch 2008 and those who knew Alfred Mark R. Mar, he has joined the Creator last March 6, 2011. His wake is at Angel Funeral Homes. Interment is on March 15, 2011.

Please pray to all military officers who died in an ambush today at Mawab Compostela Valley Province.

We are all praying for the souls of the people who died and for the deceased family. May you will all rest in peace.

"Pharma-Ville: The nurses way to understand the concept of Pharmacology

At last our seminar has ended, after how many stressful weeks I can say that i am already done being my supervisor's tiny little crap follower! woaaah! thank you very much for our guest speaker MRS. JOSEFINA R. LOCSIN, RN it was a very very fruitful, knowledgeable and entertaining discussion. We learned alot from that span of hour. We will not forget what we've learned on your lecture. Forget about the pathophysiology and let's focus more on CONCEPT and MEDICATION itself ;). Heparin, warfarin, agonist, antagonist, nitroglycerin, and etc.

HEARING AND LEARNING from the ISSUES REGARDING THE SEMINAR were of great interest, particularly on improving OUR OWN WAY OF UNDERSTANDING PHARMACOLOGY as nurses. I think the best tribute for us students in this seminar are the points raised today and that will be a very valuable contribution for us in the near future. Once again i would also thank our beloved clinical instructor MRS. JANETTE F. LUMANDO, RN, MAN for always reminding us regarding our paper works, for the preparation, and for the patience in teaching us regarding the concept of organizing a seminar. Thank you very much maam. Another person to be recognize also, one of the alumni in the school where i am currently studying is SIR HAROLD AGUINALDO, RN thank you sir for showing your support in this seminar and for assisting maam JOSEFINA LOCSIN. I would also like to thank my groupmates for their full support and in some useful contributions. I wish to thank all my co students for actively listening and participating during the discussion and colloquium, the seminar made also possible because of the complete number of participants. Finally, I hope that the insights that we have gained will be fruitful in our future work. Thank you very much and God bless us all.

THE FIRST TALK :)

It was our lunch break where im so disturbed, stressed out and very exhausted and tryna find a way to divert my attention into sumthin that wd make me feel satisfied and probably forget the problems i am into, in that very moment i am with one of my closest friends which i often call him as my “bhe2 ko”. Im tryna ask for a comfort from him and maybe he can give me some words of advise on what are the possible interventions that im gonna do with my problems. He was a very gud adviser though he makes jokes within our conversations, but i can internalized his advises. In that moment, i still have these WORRIED expression in my face but i didnt allow other people to sense of what im feeling that time.

As i am listening to my favorite rock song in my ipod , i heard that someone called my name saying , “PINK”. I couldnt recognize that voice coz its a little bit unfamiliar and somehow familiar lol.. I then realize that i just cant recognize it because ever since that person didnt even talk to me coz were not that close and it was our first time to be in one section , so i was shocked to hear him calling my name , as if were very close as he call my name that time, it was a very sweet and calm voice from my beloved crush and that was our FIRST TALK ever, he asked me about why am i absent yesterday because our clinical instructor was looking at me, i didnt mind the question that he asked me coz i was very amazed with his charming and angelic face (this is how i describe it).

For me then , this day is a very exhausting day ever but i suddenly realized that only his warm voice let me forgot the exhaustion that i felt this day and i know that sometimes its psychological but i tell you it works alot! .PROVEN!! Til next time


the picture above is my beh2 ko , sadly i dun have a photo of my crush lol maybe next tym i will have it on hand :))

"WHY MEN WANT SEX AND WOMEN NEED LOVE"

      "Without LUST the human species could be threatened with extinction"


[from the book of Allan and Barbara Pease "WHY MEN WANT SEX AND WOMEN NEED LOVE"] 

       This is one of the BEST NATIONAL BOOKSTORE line  I have read about this book, actually i didn't read it everyday like my notes in school , i just read it when i have my leisure time coz its not also my book , its my sister's lol. She just bought it when she had a visit on one of the branches of NBS here in davao city . Its cover is very interesting that many people would expect something from it and some would think that it was not a good book because it is all about SEX! u know people likes judging something which they didnt even know whats the CONTENT of that book. . 

      As of now, i am trying to read it minimally and i look forward for the time that im gonna finish it. ;) so WISH me LUCK people and keep updated on my posts coz il be posting some of the good lines in that book here in my blog :)